Today was the first day for the new case manager and was also the first day for my intern. I am not used to constantly being around coworkers the way I was today. It seemed that we were all attached at the hip. I'm the kind of person who appreciates alone time and works best when I'm behind my closed door in a quiet place. I did not have that today.
The new girl is not BRAND new, she was a case manager somewhere else. I think she's going to be great, but I know from experience how overwhelming the job is. The first day I did it I came home crying, but that was because I was thrown into the picture in crisis. The girl I was replacing had just up and quit with no notice. I had to step in and roll with it. Honestly I'm thankful for that because it really made me feel a sense of accomplishment and that hey... I can do this! This girl is going to have me to hold her hand.
United Way people were at the ofice today visiting and the place is just a madhouse now because clients need to update their files for the new year. We give them until the end of Janaury to update or they lose services. Of course many wait until the last minute, so it's been hectic. As well as training the new person, I'm also responsible for my new intern. I'll call him H. H is a young guy getting his undergrad in social work. He's VERY fired up about case management, but really until I train the new case manager I don' t have a lot of individual time to train him. I do have him sitting in with my while I train her though.
I had no time to do my own work today and spent a lot of time running around, answering questions, trying to be a positive role model. The other case workers in the office did little to help because, well..... I'm there to do it. Ya know?
By the end of the day I was really stressed, headache, and when I walked in the door I ended up crying/talking to my husband. LOL He's not very good at that sort of thing. While he is very supportive, he almost always says the wrong thing and if I'm telling him about a problem with another person, instead of saying "I see your point" he always seems to say something that defends the behavior of the other person. LOL It's frustrating but I don't want to feel like I can't talk to him about things that bother me... I just have to learn that I shouldn't expect him to say the right things. His heart is in the right place, and he loves and supports me. I have to let that make up for the words that come out of his mouth. Has anyone else ever experienced that? Is it because men are "fixers?"
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Yes, those guys are fixers through and through. I've had to tell my hubby to just listen and hold me, not to try to fix anything. He's pretty good at it now. lol
ReplyDeleteAs for the church thing, I understand. :) You gotta go where you feel right. Is there another you can visit and get the feel for? (of course, there's always MY church...but I doubt you're looking to change religions! lol) Standing open invite, though! *wink!*
That's a tough decision....your family is happy one place and you're not.
Like I posted last time, praying and asking God what He wants for you will help you find the peace you seek as you decide what to do.....speaking from much experience.
;>) smooches and hugs! :)